Help! I’m In The Middle Of My Midlife Crisis

No, seriously. I truly mean that. I was initially typing up a blog entry that was going to blast social networking such as this and call it an empty excuse for virtual reality.

Then it got much more darker and I was complaining about how everyone online is trying to be more clever (yikes – bad english?) than the next person. It started going on and on about a “what if” scenario occurring that caused worldwide connectivity to collapse. Thousands of people wouldn’t know what to do with themselves or how to behave.

Then I stopped and said to myself, “What’s my point?” I started questioning my own negativity and refusal to acknowledge that wordpress or facebook or twitter does help people interract with other like-minded individuals.

It’s not a vast wasteland like Newton Minow attributed to television over fifty years ago. Well, sometimes it could be but, hey, I need to steer away from being negative.

I was starting to sound bitter and miserable while complaining that bloggers are only out to try and prove how unique they think they are or are only using these sites to sell books and/or artwork.

I stopped again.

Maybe it’s not you (collectively) who is bitter and miserable. Maybe it’s me.

I’m the miserable and negative person in this picture. It was me trying to project my drawbacks and failings onto you. What’s that old expression? Misery loves company? Ding.

I have my reasons for being miserable. If you only knew.

So how do I turn this around and focus, I mean really focus, on being positive? No one said that it was going to be easy. It gets increasingly more difficult as we get older.

Each of us is responsible for our own happiness. Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Our freaking forefathers wrote that.

How do I find my own happiness in middle age? That’s the sixty-four-thousand dollar question.

I’m not looking to blame my parents for this but I think being negative is a learned behavior from my upbringing. More likely it’s genetic. My mother was a negative person and she suffered from depression for the last twenty-two years of her life. Actually maybe more than that.

I do have alot of negativity going on in my life. I don’t wish to post my troubles here. See “About This Blogger” if you want to make contact with me.

Thanks. I could surely use an e-friend right now.